Tuesday, October 25, 2016

One Peaceful Moment

Whites Cyn & Soledad Cyn intersection

Getting out of the house when you’re forced to be there, is like a kid trying to sneak out at night.

I had to escape the confines of the house, so I grabbed my keys, stopped at the local KFC, and headed up to a park that overlooks my city. I sat, enjoyed the quiet and the view as I munched on fried chicken and coleslaw. I thought about how relaxed and rested I felt not having to worry about work. I felt happy and at peace and that made me cry tears of joy because this is what I wanted all along.

I do not look forward to going back to work, where the stress and the frustration all come back, but I know there’s not a chance in hell that’ll happen. So, in a few days, all the happiness and peacefulness will escape my body and I’ll be back to dealing with production companies and their ever growing demands.



Monday, October 24, 2016

Arsenal of Recovery Products

Recovery Day 5:

And this is why I can’t go back to work yet…

+Q-Tips. A definite must have to clean and/or apply ointment.

+Hydrogen Peroxide. Must clean the stitches at least three times a day, or more, if you’re obsessive about it like I am.

+Saline Wash. Spraying this into my nose has become a routine. I do this at least 15 times per day. It’s kind of a cool feeling. At first, it was weird because it would drip into the back of my throat and come out my mouth, but once the swelling went down a bit, I was able to do it without holding my head back.

+Antibiotic. This is obvious. Need it to heal properly. 4x daily.

+Tylenol. Because sometimes the pressure and pain behind the nose is just a little more unbearable than necessary.

+Ointment. This is a definite necessity in order to keep the area moist. Without it, the peroxide dries everything out and leaves crust built up on and around the stitches.

+Nose guard/mustache. This is the gauze wrap that went under the nose to catch all the blood that was originally dripping. After the packing came out on Day 2, this mustache hasn’t been necessary.

+Flashlight. Because when the lighting in the bathroom isn’t good enough to allow you to see up inside your nose, you need a little help, whether it’s pretty or not.


Sunday, October 23, 2016

One Fish, Two Fish, Old Fish, New Fish.

A little over three weeks ago, we lost our very awesome Betta Fish, Indy. He was an amazing fish. He would follow our finger around the glass, as if he was targeting his mark like a trained dog. He would jump up out of the water to catch pieces of food, as if he was a hungry Great White Shark. Simply put, he was the best fish I’ve ever had.

We started to notice he was laying on the bottom of the tank, which wasn’t his MO. It was the exact opposite of his normal. He would wave his little fins at us when we’d walk up to the tank as if he was trying to tell us he was still alive, just barely. After about 24hrs of this, we started to notice that he wasn’t even coming up to the top of the tank for air. We would watch him try to swim to the top, but ultimately fall back down without even getting all the way up. It was painful to watch.

We noticed his scales were not laying flat on his body anymore, and that he had taken on the shape of a strange looking pinecone. By this time, it had been about three days since he’d eaten. We lowered the water level in the tank so that he didn’t need to swim up so high, but it continued to be a struggle until he just couldn’t come up anymore.

Constipation, kidney failure, or Dropsy, we’re not sure.

We read about several different things to do to help save him, but after about four days of trying, he finally succumbed to whatever was killing him. I found him at the bottom of the tank when I came home for lunch, and his little fins weren’t moving to greet me. Although I knew it was only a matter of days, it broke my heart and I immediately fell to the ground in tears. I could barely see the numbers on the phone through the tears, but when SS answered the phone, he knew why I was calling. I couldn’t form words, it was just sounds coming out. I could hear him crying on the other end, and that made it so much worse for me.

It took us a couple of weeks to be able to talk about him without crying, and when that happened, we went ahead and got another one. He’s a completely different color, so hoping he brings a different kind of vibe to our home.

Meet Turq.



Friday, October 21, 2016

I’m can breathe out of BOTH nostrils again!

Nose Surgery

When I was about nine or ten years old, my nose started to change its shape. It started to grow in two different directions, causing some breathing troubles, and a lot of self consciousness. The septum started to move and cover up one of my nostrils. I always attributed it to being hit in the face by a tetherball in elementary school, but who really knows?

Well, enough was enough. I finally mustered up the courage to see the doctor. After one visit, I was sold. Although scared, I went ahead and scheduled the appt.

Surgery Day: Wednesday.
I was beyond scared. SS took the day off work so he could accompany me (thank God for that), but that didn’t seem to ease the anxiety. Anxiety has ruled my life for many years, and today was no exception. All the way up until the moment they wheeled me into the O.R. room, I was scared. All the nurses knew it, and they did what they could to help make my experience less scary. The last thing I remember was seeing the doctor walk into the O.R. room. The double doors opened like he was a saint walking into the room. *Eyes closed*

Waking up in the recovery room.
I remember nothing. One of my biggest fears was that I would wake up during the proceedure. That didn’t happen. When I mentioned that fear to the Anesthesiologist, he laughed at me. Out loud. As if that was a ridiculous thing in which to be scared. Apparently I’ve watched too many television shows.

Those first few minutes were incredible. The amount of blood that was pouring out of my nose, was like something from a horror movie. It just kept coming. The nurse must have changed my nose dressing (they call it a mustache) about ten times in that hour I was there.


Time to go home.
This was my favorite part of the whole day. Knowing that the worst was over, I felt some sort of relief when I thought about being in my own home.

Ha. Ha. Ha. at me for thinking I could even do half the stuff I thought I could. The simplest things like bending down to pick up the napkin I dropped, seemed almost impossible. I expected the throbbing in my face to be worse, but I think the pain meds they gave helped take care of that. Thankfully.

Sleeping at night.
Trying to sleep that first night was impossible. Having to sit up while sleeping was so much harder than I thought. I don’t sleep in the car on long drives, and sleeping on an airplane is difficult for me as well. I just knew this wasn’t going to be easy. I did the best I could propped up on pillows in my bed, but after about six hours of trying to fight a numb butt, I decided it was best to get up and just sit on the couch. At least I would be in a sitting up position this way. I turned the television on and within ten minutes, I was out. Finally, a few minutes of sleep.

Day One.
More painful than surgery day. Still taking pain meds. Don’t really have an appetite to eat anything, so it’s just single pieces of bread for now. Lots of dozing trying to make up for last night.

Day Two. Packing removal.
Went back to the doc today to have the packing taken out. Wasn’t really sure what to expect from that, other than some uncomfortable pain. Doc grabbed one piece, then the next, and it was all done in about 3.6 seconds. If I had done that myself, it would have taken me an hour. The sharp pinch it made was nothing compared to what I expected. Immediately I was able to breathe out of both nostrils. This is something I haven’t been able to do since I was a kid. I know there will be a lot of congestion over the next few weeks, but so far, it’s not horrible.

This is where I’m at in the process. Today is still day three. The bleeding has stopped, but there is some oozing that feels a little weird. When I try to clean the blood that is caked in the stitches, my nose starts to throb. Between that, the saline solution, and the ointment, I’ve got all kinds of stuff happening to a part of the body that doesn’t usually even get touched. I hate it.

I don’t know how the rest of the process will go, but I’ll let you know. Stay tuned…

Sunday, September 18, 2016

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Having A Bad Day? Need a Laugh?

Life. It’s sometimes hard. Stress, power, anxiety, work. It can’t always be left at the office, and when it’s brought home to your safe place, it sometimes creates problems.

I read an article about funny questions you can ask your significant other. Why? Because laughter really IS the best medicine.

  1. Would you rather I be completely hairless or as hairy as a gorilla?
  2. What actor or actress would play you in a movie about your life?
  3. Would you rather our children grow up to be 8ft tall or 3ft tall?
  4. Who would play your love interest (aka: me)?
  5. If you had to go a week without your phone, what would you miss the most about it?
  6. What do you like most that I do in bed?
  7. What was your first impression of me? Did you ever dislike me?
  8. If you woke up tomorrow as the opposite sex, what would be the top three things you’d do?
  9. Would you rather endure childbirth or wear high heels for an entire day?
  10. Would you rather use whipped cream or hot fudge?
  11. What do you think is your best physical feature?
  12. What do you think is your worst physical feature?
  13. If you could be on any reality TV show, which one would it be?
  14. Have you ever obsessed over anything? (toys, movies, projects, people, problems)
  15. What were your nicknames growing up, including the ones you didn’t want to stick?
  16. If I let you dress me, what would I wear on our next date?
  17. Would you ever role play in bed?
  18. Yoga pants or skirts?
  19. What is the most sensitive part of your body?
  20. Do you think you’re a good kisser?
  21. Is there a momory you have of me that always makes you laugh?

Go ahead. Ask your mate. I’m sure this will bring on a few laughs.

Monday, September 12, 2016

Catching Up

It’s September, and we all know what that means.

Back to School!

Summertime is over. Here in SoCal, that doesn’t mean the end of swimming, weekend bbq’s, hiking, or trips to the beach. Nope. It was 91* degrees here yesterday, so we’re hoping to see some cooler days in our near future.
What it does mean, is more traffic. Since schools are back in, the freeways are completely stopped in the morning, and the city streets are more crowded from the people trying to avoid the freeway. On-ramps are stopped because the freeway isn’t moving, which backs up traffic into the regular streets as well. It’s a frustrating thing we deal with here every day. And I can’t wait to move away from it all.

Lil’ SS started 7th grade this year (YIKES!), and RJ started 11th (HOLY COW!). Both of them started new school’s, and while Lil’ SS is adapting well, RJ is having a bit of a harder time. :(

School is closed. With about a week’s notice that the school might close, us students were left wondering, “What do we do now?” 15 months into my 21 month program, the school has left me with two options.
1- transfer a couple of my credits to a different school 45 minutes away, take more classes that weren’t needed in my previous program, and graduate from new school.
2- contact my student loans and apply for loan forgivness because school closed, and continue working at current job.

Neither option is what I want, I’ll be honest.
Back to the drawing board of what I want out of life.

Sunday, September 11, 2016

10 to Go

The Chase. For the Sprint Cup.




Kyle Busch


Tony Stewart


Kurt Busch


Joey Logano


Carl Edwards


Denny Hamlin


Kevin Harvick


Matt Kenseth


Brad Keselowski


Chris Buescher


Martin Truex Jr.


Chase Elliott


Kyle Larson


Jimmie Johnson


Austin Dillon


Jamie McMurray

Saturday, July 23, 2016

He Just Turned Sixteen

Happy 16th birthday to my one and only special guy.

Go Karts and Water Bumper Boats….


Arcade Games…


The Beach…


Red Lobster for dinner…


Ice Cream cake for dessert…


Love you to the moon and back. xo

Monday, July 11, 2016

Our Big (2016) Adventure

Yo, yo, yo. Do I even still have readers out there? It’s been so hard to keep this blog up to date with all that is happening in my life, but I promise I’ll keep trying. A better way to keep up with the happenings of my life, is through Instagram. Check it out. Request to follow me. I won’t bite, I promise.

Chicken, chickens, and more chickens.
What is with all the chickens?

Everywhere we went, there were chickens. There were chickens on the beach, on the main roads, in people’s front yards, in and around restaurants, at hotels, at the river, and EVERYWHERE ELSE.


Helicopter ride around Kauai.
If you’re ever there, it’s worth every penny.

We took an hour long helicopter ride around the entire island. It was absolutely stunning from that height. We saw areas that were only accessible by boat, and areas that were only accessible by hiking several mile upon mile. Hiking wasn’t something we were interested in doing while we were on a relaxing vacation, but we saw several people doing it.


Swimming with fishies.
If you don’t get seasick, this is a must do activity.

We took a 2-hour boat ride around to the north side of the island, where they allowed everyone to swim with the local fishies. SS and Lil’ SS dove right in, but I was scared, so I got back on the boat. I’ll be honest, it freaked me out a great deal to be swimming around in the area that is supposed to be just for sea life. Make fun of me all you want, but we all have fears.



The wind was blowing at different rates the entire seven days. It rained a few times, but by rain, I mean it sprinkled a little bit, then blew threw. Nothing extravagent. No storms. It never kept us indoors and it never stopped us from having fun. It was an amazing vacation that I’m so grateful I got to spend with these two wonderful people. I can’t wait until our next big adventure.


Sunday, June 26, 2016

We went to Kauai

A few weeks ago, SS, Lil’ SS and I went to Kauai. His parents paid for the trip (because they were taking Lil’ SS originally), so SS and I decided to tag along – since I’d never been.

Here’s a beautiful sunset we saw one evening. Was one of the most amazing things I’ve ever seen.

There were several places we visited. Several different restaurants we dined. I could write a blog post on each and every one of them. Perhaps I will.

Stay tuned.

Thursday, May 26, 2016

Writing Challenge: Day 26


I only have one pet. Indy the Beta Fish. And he’s the most awesome fish ever.

Now it’s your turn. Tell me about your pets.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Writing Challenge: Day 24

Makes Me Goggle

I’m going to assume this is supposed to mean ‘Giggle’, but who the hell am I to know what they mean?

I giggle every time SS tickles me, RJ tells me a silly joke, I watch the Big Bang Theory, and when my boss’ daughter gives me a high five.


Now it’s your turn. Tell me something that makes you giggle.

Writing Challenge: Day 23

*Free theme* – use washi tape

I didn’t know what the hell washi tape was, so I went to Google, cause, you know, Google know everything! Apparently, it’s some sort of tape that has different designs on it. Big whoop. I rarely use tape, and when I do, I don’t want it to be visibly different. I just like regular tape.

Does that make me boring? Maybe.
Does that make me square? Perhaps.
Does that make me unimaginitive? Most definitely.
Deal with it.


Now it’s your turn. Tell me about a time you used washi tape.

Writing Challenge: Day 22

In The Garden

I don’t have a garden, but if I did, it would be littered with Gnomes. I have five different Gnomes, but two of them have two Gnomes together, so technically I have seven different ones. I think they would do an amazing job protecting my garden from unwanted visitors. One day.

Here are the ones that guard my house right now…

Cliff & Will


Hans & Gretta






*No Name Ever Given*

Now it’s your turn. Tell me about your garden.

Monday, May 23, 2016

Writing Challenge: Day 21


Sis and Squid are in town for the weekend, so it’s been nothing but chores, chores, and more chores for a few days now. They stay in the same room RJ and Lil’ SS stay in when they’re here, so it needs a once over. You know, after a 15 year old teenager stays in there for a few weeks, it’s not exactly pretty.

Now it’s your turn. Tell me what chores you do.

Writing Challenge: Day 20

Something You Miss

I miss my old car. I miss being able to fly in and out of traffic quickly. Being able to fit into smaller places. I just miss that little thing.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m still in love with the Escape. I just miss the little car.


Now it’s your turn. Tell me something you miss.

Thursday, May 19, 2016

Writing Challenge: Day 19

Top 10 Songs

Since country music is just about the only genre of music I listed to, let’s do the Top 10 Country Songs on iTunes right now. Today.

  1. H.O.L.Y. by Florida Georgia Line
  2. Came Here to Forget by Blake Shelton
  3. I’m Sorry by Adam Wakefield (The Voice performance)
  4. Humble and Kind by Tim McGraw
  5. Go Ahead and Break My Heart by Blake Shelton feat. Gwen Stefani
  6. Somewhere on a Beach by Dierks Bentley
  7. T-Shirt by Thomas Rhett
  8. The Fighter by Keith Urban feat. Carrie Underwood
  9. Straight Outta Cold Beer by Blake Shelton
  10. Huntin’, Fishin’ and Lovin’ Every Day by Luke Bryan



Now it’s your turn. Tell me what the top 10 songs are in your favorite genre of music.

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Writing Challenge: Day 18

What I Wore Today

I meant to take a picture of myself today, but TOTALLY FORGOT! Aaaahhh.

So, instead, here’s a photo of me from a few years ago, with the same outfit on. That makes it kind of the same, right? ;-)

Blue jeans and a t-shirt (usually a white one) are my typical outfit. This is a gray shirt, because sometimes it’s just a gray shirt kind of day.

Photo Jan 10, 1 23 25 PM


Now it’s your turn. Tell me what you wore today.

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Writing Challenge: Day 17


I set an alarm on my phone for 2:57p so that I’d remember to pay attention to what I was doing at 3pm. At 3pm today, I was in the middle of talking to my boss and one of the trainers, when the alarm went off. I set a different type of sound than my usual annoying alarm so that just in case I was on the phone with a production company, it didn’t start blaring some awful sound and interupt my call.

Thankfully, the guys just laughed at my silly triangle instrument sound and had to know why I had it going off at some weird time. Then, I explained this, and they looked at me like I had way too much time on my hands.

Boys. They just sometimes don’t understand.


Now it’s your turn. Tell me what you were doing at 3pm.

Monday, May 16, 2016

Writing Challenge: Day 16

Snack Food

One of my most favorite snack foods, is Flaming Hot Cheetos.
As much as I hate to admit this to the general public, I could eat an entire 9oz bag in one sitting. Unfortunately, I would be extremely miserable the next day, but I could do it.



Now it’s your turn. Tell me what your favorite snack food is.

Sunday, May 15, 2016

Writing Challenge: Day 15

Favorite Color

Red, red, and more red.
My favorite color is…



Now it’s your turn. Tell me what your favorite color is.

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Writing Challenge: Day 14

Who do you love?

I love all these people….




Now it’s your turn. Tell me who you love.

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