Wednesday, January 11, 2017

He Knew I Was There

Faith. I struggle with it. Believing there is a higher power, is something I’ll always question. Eight very long years of catholic school, and two additional years of religion classes to make my Confirmation, left me with a bad attitude towards the church. And twenty-three years later, I just can’t say that I believe any more than I did when I was attending.

Today, I had a brief moment to stop and talk to two people I haven’t actually spoken to in more than sixteen years. As I told them both all the good and bad things happening in my life, a little Earthworm came out from the grass and started circling my grandfathers name.

When my grandfather was alive, he was obsessed with gardening and making his flowers the most beautiful in the neighborhood. He would pick fresh ones every week and give them to my grandmother to put in her kitchen window above the sink where she did dishes. When there were too many flowers, he would give them to people walking down the street. Women walking with kids, men walking dogs, the mailman. Anyone that would walk by, he would offer flowers to. He would light up like a flashlight when people would comment on how big and beautiful they were. He was just so proud.

But with gardening comes worms. Lots and lots of worms. I remember him showing me them and trying to teach me that they weren’t “gross bugs” as I so lovingly named them. They were just there doing their job. A very important job.

Was it a coinsidence? I don’t know. I’d like to believe that he knew I was there and was saying hi to me, but the skeptic in me, thinks it just might have been the heavy rains that brought out Mr Worm. I saw no other worms as I walked along the grounds, but who really knows?

**As a side note, every single headstone around this one, was covered in mud and sitting water from all the rains we’ve had recently. Why was this one spared?


Monday, January 2, 2017

Happy New Year

Another year has come and gone. It’s in the past, and all we have to remember it, are a few pictures and videos, and a possible chance at not forgetting it in my brain. Not likely for me, but a possibility I’ll at least remember everything about our trip to Hawaii.

I haven’t made a New Years resolution in years. Mostly because I always set unrealistic goals for myself knowing I couldn’t follow through with them. However, this year, SS and I have agreed that exercising is an important thing to start doing. We do very little exerising throughout the rest of the year, so we’ve decided to change that. Here’s to hoping we follow through.

I’m also going to go into the new year with a completely different outlook on this blog. I miss writing. I miss sitting down to this computer every day and spilling out my feelings and emotions. I miss talking about the good, and the bad. And I miss the feedback of others. So, in 2017, I vow to write more. And maybe a little more about Nascar. ;-)

What are some of your New Year resolutions?


Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Road Trip

We spent Thanksgiving in Oregon this year. For the most part, it was a really fun trip. One of my favorite things about SS, is his ability to make sweet juicy lemonade out of rotten lemons.

We drove a total of 2,092 miles in this fabulous 2016 Buick Verano. Most comfortable car I’ve ever driven. I would definitely recommend this car to anyone looking to purchase something new.

Thankfully the rental car had XM radio because leaving at 4am is tougher than it seems. Between Madonna, Right Said Fred, and Roxette, I made it to sunrise without falling asleep.

Thanksgiving dinner at my Aunt’s new house…


A trip to Multnomah Falls -



And what driving trip to Oregon would be complete without a photo of Mt. Shasta?

I hope your Thanksgiving holiday was amazing and filled with a lot of great memories.


Monday, November 14, 2016

The Countdown Has Begun

In just eight days, SS and I will be on the road to our Thanksgiving destination, where we will spend three full days relaxing, eating a lot, and doing fun things with family.

Can’t wait.

…And Then There Were Four

Yesterday’s race at Phoenix International Raceway, proved to be a major disappointment for some, and a big win for others.

With only two spots available, six drivers had to be on the top of their game and have one of the best days of this season. Matt Kenseth, Kyle Busch, Kevin Harvick, Joey Logano, Kurt Busch, and Denny Hamlin battled for 324 laps before Joey Logano finally took the checkered flag. Kyle Busch’s second place finish allowed him to take the last spot in the final four.


In all honesty, I’m very happy that Kevin Harvick isn’t going to get a chance at the Sprint Cup. He’s my uncle’s favorite driver, and one of my least favorite. His attitude towards his entire crew this year, has been horrible, and although I’m not a fan, I’d be disappointed if I actually was.

I’m not thrilled about Joey Logano being in the final four, along with Jimmie Johnson, but when Kyle Busch wins, it’ll give me satisfaction knowing he took away Jimmie’s chance at a 7th championship. Ha!

My fingers are crossed that Kyle will dominate and put on a fantastic final show.

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

Favorite Shows

Now that we’re a few weeks into the new season of most television shows, let’s talk about which are our favorites.

Gotham- This show is beginning to get a little more gruesome than I’d like. The extreme way in which they feel they need to actually show someone dying or being killed, is just getting to be a bit much. However, the stories are so great, I can’t help but tune in week after week.
I assumed it would follow the exact storyline as in the original Batman movie that we know (okay, by this I actually mean the Michael Keaton story of Batman. Because, well, that is the best), but I feel like it’s a bit different. SS thinks there’s no way it will be exactly the same, so should we not assume that Barbara becomes Barbara Gordon?


The Big Bang Theory- El oh el at this show. Each episode, even after 10 years, still has me laughing out loud. It’s great. I’ve heard people say it several times, that when a show is in trouble, they always bring in a new kid to spice things up. I remember The Cosby Show doing that. I also remember All In The Family doing it. I’m sure there are others, but you get the point.


NCIS- This show has me scratching my head. It’s not the storylines, they’re fine, which is surprising after 14 seasons. It’s Bishop. It’s Quinn. It’s Torres. I just can’t get behind them. I don’t like the chemistry between them. Wait, there’s not any. That’s the problem. I don’t know why, but it’s all wrong. Quinn has an attitude that I can’t stand, Torres is too busy thinking about his past and where he was, and Bishop is just not a great actress. She’s not believable. I’ve tried for a couple of seasons now, to get used to her, but I just can’t.
It’s Ducky’s last season, so that leaves Gibbs, McGee, and Abby to make up the backbone of this show we’ve all grown to love. I’m not sure they are strong enough to outweigh the bad acting of the other three before people stop watching.
Perhaps it’s time to just end it? Ugh. I hate the thought of that. Or maybe Gibbs, McGee, and Abby can move to New Orleans and work with the cast of NCIS: New Orleans. I hear they’re looking for a new person. ;-)


Scorpion- Great cast, great chemistry, great story lines, great show. No matter what case these guys are put on by Homeland Security, they’re hilarious, informative, and a little strange. And they make it work. Plus, I think having Katharine McPhee on the show, adds a little spice. I remember her from American Idol, and never imagined she would make the jump to acting. In all honesty, I like her better as an actor than a singer.


Bull- This is Michael Weatherly’s new show. Most people know him as Tony DiNozzo from NCIS. A little bit of the DiNozzo character comes out once in a while, but for the most part, he’s a completely different person. The show is very impressive, and the cast is fantastic. They’re believable, and THAT is what makes good television.
I’m very curious to see how many different stories and ways they can make their strategy continue to work, so I’ll keep tuning in each week to find out.


No Tomorrow- Brand new show about a guy who is convinced that the world is going to end in a little over eight months. He’s hell bent on crossing everything off his Apocolist, and he’s caught the eye and heart of a woman who is definitely not a risk taker. His jumping in fountains and doing embarassing things, leave her questioning his sanity, but when she realizes how freeing and fun these things can be, she makes her own Apocolist and they help each other.
Falling in love, though, doesn’t come without a price when someone wants to try everything before dying.


Notorious- Piper Perabo’s new show. Love her!
The media and criminal law have a complicated relationship. The story of a salacious crime is a powerful tool to drive up news viewership numbers, while what's being reported and how it's portrayed can sway public perception of crimes and the parties involved. These facts are far from lost on news producer Julia George and criminal defense attorney Jake Gregorian, who have a relationship built on the ways they can benefit each other professionally. "Notorious" is inspired by true stories about Mark Geragos and Wendy Walker, who also serve as executive producers.

That’s enough from me for today. I could go on and on with other shows I love like, Blacklist, Blindspot, Hawaii Five-0, American Housewife, or How to Get Away with Murder, but I’ll save those for another time.

Did I mention any of your favorite shows? If not, tell me about them.


Monday, October 31, 2016

Happy Halloween

Happy Halloween!


So hard to believe it’s already Halloween. Wasn’t it just the beginning of race season?

Since SS and I are not dressing up this year, there won’t be pounds of candy in our house. Which in turns means we won’t have to do ridiculous amounts of exercises to be rid of the candy bulge. Score!


Be safe out there. Don’t let crazy creepy clowns get you.

Thursday, October 27, 2016

Cast Off

Yesterday, the cast came off. It’s officially been one full week since the surgery, and although I can see some of the results, it’s still very early to know exactly how it will look.

Here are a few before and after photos…

Before and after day 7


Before and after day 7b

You can see the swelling in the photos. Eventually, the skin will settle back down onto the bone and I’ll be able to tell final results, but until then, it’s Puffy Faced Val.


Tuesday, October 25, 2016

One Peaceful Moment

Whites Cyn & Soledad Cyn intersection

Getting out of the house when you’re forced to be there, is like a kid trying to sneak out at night.

I had to escape the confines of the house, so I grabbed my keys, stopped at the local KFC, and headed up to a park that overlooks my city. I sat, enjoyed the quiet and the view as I munched on fried chicken and coleslaw. I thought about how relaxed and rested I felt not having to worry about work. I felt happy and at peace and that made me cry tears of joy because this is what I wanted all along.

I do not look forward to going back to work, where the stress and the frustration all come back, but I know there’s not a chance in hell that’ll happen. So, in a few days, all the happiness and peacefulness will escape my body and I’ll be back to dealing with production companies and their ever growing demands.



Monday, October 24, 2016

Arsenal of Recovery Products

Recovery Day 5:

And this is why I can’t go back to work yet…

+Q-Tips. A definite must have to clean and/or apply ointment.

+Hydrogen Peroxide. Must clean the stitches at least three times a day, or more, if you’re obsessive about it like I am.

+Saline Wash. Spraying this into my nose has become a routine. I do this at least 15 times per day. It’s kind of a cool feeling. At first, it was weird because it would drip into the back of my throat and come out my mouth, but once the swelling went down a bit, I was able to do it without holding my head back.

+Antibiotic. This is obvious. Need it to heal properly. 4x daily.

+Tylenol. Because sometimes the pressure and pain behind the nose is just a little more unbearable than necessary.

+Ointment. This is a definite necessity in order to keep the area moist. Without it, the peroxide dries everything out and leaves crust built up on and around the stitches.

+Nose guard/mustache. This is the gauze wrap that went under the nose to catch all the blood that was originally dripping. After the packing came out on Day 2, this mustache hasn’t been necessary.

+Flashlight. Because when the lighting in the bathroom isn’t good enough to allow you to see up inside your nose, you need a little help, whether it’s pretty or not.


Sunday, October 23, 2016

One Fish, Two Fish, Old Fish, New Fish.

A little over three weeks ago, we lost our very awesome Betta Fish, Indy. He was an amazing fish. He would follow our finger around the glass, as if he was targeting his mark like a trained dog. He would jump up out of the water to catch pieces of food, as if he was a hungry Great White Shark. Simply put, he was the best fish I’ve ever had.

We started to notice he was laying on the bottom of the tank, which wasn’t his MO. It was the exact opposite of his normal. He would wave his little fins at us when we’d walk up to the tank as if he was trying to tell us he was still alive, just barely. After about 24hrs of this, we started to notice that he wasn’t even coming up to the top of the tank for air. We would watch him try to swim to the top, but ultimately fall back down without even getting all the way up. It was painful to watch.

We noticed his scales were not laying flat on his body anymore, and that he had taken on the shape of a strange looking pinecone. By this time, it had been about three days since he’d eaten. We lowered the water level in the tank so that he didn’t need to swim up so high, but it continued to be a struggle until he just couldn’t come up anymore.

Constipation, kidney failure, or Dropsy, we’re not sure.

We read about several different things to do to help save him, but after about four days of trying, he finally succumbed to whatever was killing him. I found him at the bottom of the tank when I came home for lunch, and his little fins weren’t moving to greet me. Although I knew it was only a matter of days, it broke my heart and I immediately fell to the ground in tears. I could barely see the numbers on the phone through the tears, but when SS answered the phone, he knew why I was calling. I couldn’t form words, it was just sounds coming out. I could hear him crying on the other end, and that made it so much worse for me.

It took us a couple of weeks to be able to talk about him without crying, and when that happened, we went ahead and got another one. He’s a completely different color, so hoping he brings a different kind of vibe to our home.

Meet Turq.



Friday, October 21, 2016

I’m can breathe out of BOTH nostrils again!

Nose Surgery

When I was about nine or ten years old, my nose started to change its shape. It started to grow in two different directions, causing some breathing troubles, and a lot of self consciousness. The septum started to move and cover up one of my nostrils. I always attributed it to being hit in the face by a tetherball in elementary school, but who really knows?

Well, enough was enough. I finally mustered up the courage to see the doctor. After one visit, I was sold. Although scared, I went ahead and scheduled the appt.

Surgery Day: Wednesday.
I was beyond scared. SS took the day off work so he could accompany me (thank God for that), but that didn’t seem to ease the anxiety. Anxiety has ruled my life for many years, and today was no exception. All the way up until the moment they wheeled me into the O.R. room, I was scared. All the nurses knew it, and they did what they could to help make my experience less scary. The last thing I remember was seeing the doctor walk into the O.R. room. The double doors opened like he was a saint walking into the room. *Eyes closed*

Waking up in the recovery room.
I remember nothing. One of my biggest fears was that I would wake up during the proceedure. That didn’t happen. When I mentioned that fear to the Anesthesiologist, he laughed at me. Out loud. As if that was a ridiculous thing in which to be scared. Apparently I’ve watched too many television shows.

Those first few minutes were incredible. The amount of blood that was pouring out of my nose, was like something from a horror movie. It just kept coming. The nurse must have changed my nose dressing (they call it a mustache) about ten times in that hour I was there.


Time to go home.
This was my favorite part of the whole day. Knowing that the worst was over, I felt some sort of relief when I thought about being in my own home.

Ha. Ha. Ha. at me for thinking I could even do half the stuff I thought I could. The simplest things like bending down to pick up the napkin I dropped, seemed almost impossible. I expected the throbbing in my face to be worse, but I think the pain meds they gave helped take care of that. Thankfully.

Sleeping at night.
Trying to sleep that first night was impossible. Having to sit up while sleeping was so much harder than I thought. I don’t sleep in the car on long drives, and sleeping on an airplane is difficult for me as well. I just knew this wasn’t going to be easy. I did the best I could propped up on pillows in my bed, but after about six hours of trying to fight a numb butt, I decided it was best to get up and just sit on the couch. At least I would be in a sitting up position this way. I turned the television on and within ten minutes, I was out. Finally, a few minutes of sleep.

Day One.
More painful than surgery day. Still taking pain meds. Don’t really have an appetite to eat anything, so it’s just single pieces of bread for now. Lots of dozing trying to make up for last night.

Day Two. Packing removal.
Went back to the doc today to have the packing taken out. Wasn’t really sure what to expect from that, other than some uncomfortable pain. Doc grabbed one piece, then the next, and it was all done in about 3.6 seconds. If I had done that myself, it would have taken me an hour. The sharp pinch it made was nothing compared to what I expected. Immediately I was able to breathe out of both nostrils. This is something I haven’t been able to do since I was a kid. I know there will be a lot of congestion over the next few weeks, but so far, it’s not horrible.

This is where I’m at in the process. Today is still day three. The bleeding has stopped, but there is some oozing that feels a little weird. When I try to clean the blood that is caked in the stitches, my nose starts to throb. Between that, the saline solution, and the ointment, I’ve got all kinds of stuff happening to a part of the body that doesn’t usually even get touched. I hate it.

I don’t know how the rest of the process will go, but I’ll let you know. Stay tuned…

Sunday, September 18, 2016

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Having A Bad Day? Need a Laugh?

Life. It’s sometimes hard. Stress, power, anxiety, work. It can’t always be left at the office, and when it’s brought home to your safe place, it sometimes creates problems.

I read an article about funny questions you can ask your significant other. Why? Because laughter really IS the best medicine.

  1. Would you rather I be completely hairless or as hairy as a gorilla?
  2. What actor or actress would play you in a movie about your life?
  3. Would you rather our children grow up to be 8ft tall or 3ft tall?
  4. Who would play your love interest (aka: me)?
  5. If you had to go a week without your phone, what would you miss the most about it?
  6. What do you like most that I do in bed?
  7. What was your first impression of me? Did you ever dislike me?
  8. If you woke up tomorrow as the opposite sex, what would be the top three things you’d do?
  9. Would you rather endure childbirth or wear high heels for an entire day?
  10. Would you rather use whipped cream or hot fudge?
  11. What do you think is your best physical feature?
  12. What do you think is your worst physical feature?
  13. If you could be on any reality TV show, which one would it be?
  14. Have you ever obsessed over anything? (toys, movies, projects, people, problems)
  15. What were your nicknames growing up, including the ones you didn’t want to stick?
  16. If I let you dress me, what would I wear on our next date?
  17. Would you ever role play in bed?
  18. Yoga pants or skirts?
  19. What is the most sensitive part of your body?
  20. Do you think you’re a good kisser?
  21. Is there a momory you have of me that always makes you laugh?

Go ahead. Ask your mate. I’m sure this will bring on a few laughs.

Monday, September 12, 2016

Catching Up

It’s September, and we all know what that means.

Back to School!

Summertime is over. Here in SoCal, that doesn’t mean the end of swimming, weekend bbq’s, hiking, or trips to the beach. Nope. It was 91* degrees here yesterday, so we’re hoping to see some cooler days in our near future.
What it does mean, is more traffic. Since schools are back in, the freeways are completely stopped in the morning, and the city streets are more crowded from the people trying to avoid the freeway. On-ramps are stopped because the freeway isn’t moving, which backs up traffic into the regular streets as well. It’s a frustrating thing we deal with here every day. And I can’t wait to move away from it all.

Lil’ SS started 7th grade this year (YIKES!), and RJ started 11th (HOLY COW!). Both of them started new school’s, and while Lil’ SS is adapting well, RJ is having a bit of a harder time. :(

School is closed. With about a week’s notice that the school might close, us students were left wondering, “What do we do now?” 15 months into my 21 month program, the school has left me with two options.
1- transfer a couple of my credits to a different school 45 minutes away, take more classes that weren’t needed in my previous program, and graduate from new school.
2- contact my student loans and apply for loan forgivness because school closed, and continue working at current job.

Neither option is what I want, I’ll be honest.
Back to the drawing board of what I want out of life.

Sunday, September 11, 2016

10 to Go

The Chase. For the Sprint Cup.




Kyle Busch


Tony Stewart


Kurt Busch


Joey Logano


Carl Edwards


Denny Hamlin


Kevin Harvick


Matt Kenseth


Brad Keselowski


Chris Buescher


Martin Truex Jr.


Chase Elliott


Kyle Larson


Jimmie Johnson


Austin Dillon


Jamie McMurray

Saturday, July 23, 2016

He Just Turned Sixteen

Happy 16th birthday to my one and only special guy.

Go Karts and Water Bumper Boats….


Arcade Games…


The Beach…


Red Lobster for dinner…


Ice Cream cake for dessert…


Love you to the moon and back. xo

Monday, July 11, 2016

Our Big (2016) Adventure

Yo, yo, yo. Do I even still have readers out there? It’s been so hard to keep this blog up to date with all that is happening in my life, but I promise I’ll keep trying. A better way to keep up with the happenings of my life, is through Instagram. Check it out. Request to follow me. I won’t bite, I promise.

Chicken, chickens, and more chickens.
What is with all the chickens?

Everywhere we went, there were chickens. There were chickens on the beach, on the main roads, in people’s front yards, in and around restaurants, at hotels, at the river, and EVERYWHERE ELSE.


Helicopter ride around Kauai.
If you’re ever there, it’s worth every penny.

We took an hour long helicopter ride around the entire island. It was absolutely stunning from that height. We saw areas that were only accessible by boat, and areas that were only accessible by hiking several mile upon mile. Hiking wasn’t something we were interested in doing while we were on a relaxing vacation, but we saw several people doing it.


Swimming with fishies.
If you don’t get seasick, this is a must do activity.

We took a 2-hour boat ride around to the north side of the island, where they allowed everyone to swim with the local fishies. SS and Lil’ SS dove right in, but I was scared, so I got back on the boat. I’ll be honest, it freaked me out a great deal to be swimming around in the area that is supposed to be just for sea life. Make fun of me all you want, but we all have fears.



The wind was blowing at different rates the entire seven days. It rained a few times, but by rain, I mean it sprinkled a little bit, then blew threw. Nothing extravagent. No storms. It never kept us indoors and it never stopped us from having fun. It was an amazing vacation that I’m so grateful I got to spend with these two wonderful people. I can’t wait until our next big adventure.


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