Sunday, May 19, 2013

He will just have to die without me

Emphysema - a chronic, irreversible disease of the lungs characterized by abnormal enlargement of air spaces in the lungs accompanied by destruction of the tissue lining the walls of the air spaces.

He’s dying. Doc’s have given him two years.

Sis spent last weekend with Dad. She came home with some very interesting news. Dad, the man I fear most in the whole world, wants to make amends because he’s dying. Hear that? He wants to clear HIS conscience because HE doesn’t want to die with bad feelings between us.

Are you kidding me???

For thirty years, this man tormented my life, and he thinks that if I forgive him and start to talk to him again, it’ll wash away all the horrible memories I have? Does he really think it’ll all go away? Does he think it’ll make things better?

Here are some things I’ve written about him in the past….

http://blogramblings101.blogspot.com/2010/10/getting-to-know-absent-parent_13.html

http://blogramblings101.blogspot.com/2010/05/zip-dee-doo-dah-zip-dee-ay.html

http://blogramblings101.blogspot.com/2010/05/i-remember.html

http://blogramblings101.blogspot.com/2012/01/monster-or-just-sad-man.html

I couldn’t believe he even said those words out loud to Sis. I just can’t.

I think he’ll just have to accept that his actions over the last thirty years, have consequences. And I hope it doesn’t take him two years to realize why.

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